Sunday, 2 August 2015


He plans, He plans, You plan, I plan, We plan, They plan,
 We all plan.. but indeed, Allah always has a better plan for us all. 

A series of pregnancies and miscarriages has taught me a lot. Do I give up? Inshaa Allah I will not. Yet the most notable thing is to know that I am blessed with many wonderful things in life, except for a little one/ little ones to make myself a mother again. No. I am not complaining. I am just saying. 

Look around, Zue. You are blessed with a very understanding husband who is willing to go through the ups and downs in life. Who patiently be there for you awake and asleep. Who loves you no matter how absurdly messy, or dramatically silly, or ridiculously grumpy, or wildly crazy you may be. Inshaa Allah... he will always be there.

Look at your family and your in-laws. They are your other definition of happiness. And your career, friends, students, and neighbors - they are all amazing. What's more to ask for?

The point is, we may not have everything we want in this world...but we are blessed with everything we need. He gives not what we want, but what we need. Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah.

La tahzan. Keep on praying.

One day, may you get pregnant again. May you safely give birth to perfect little caliphs who will do well in here and the hereafter. May you be an amazing wife, a doting mother, a great daughter, sister, and friend, an inspirational educator, and a much better person. 

Inshaa Allah.. Amin

Saturday, 10 May 2014

Week 39, Day 5


Dearest Little Pumpkin

We had just done last check up before week 40. Alhamdulillah.  Everything is great.
Now it is only 2cm opening. Can't wait to see you. Really can't wait to be your mummy every single moment.

According to the doctor, we will meet on Tuesday. This Tuesday, May 13. Inshaa Allah.

Mummy and Ayah pray that everything will be alright, that both of you will be healthy and well. Amin...

May everything be well. Fi hifzillah.

Hugs and kisses.

Saturday, 29 March 2014

Week 33++


Dear Little Pumpkin,

How are you doing there? Mummy prays that everything is alright. 

It has been 2 weeks++ since the last check up. Alhamdulillah. Mummy really feels blessed. Ayah too. We really can't wait to see you, to hug you, to love you and to be with you awake and asleep. Truth is, Mummy and Ayah feel nervous and excited. So many things to be done in so little time. Inshaa Allah, everything will go well. ALLAH knows our niyat. May Allah bless us all and guide us.

I still remember the first time I saw you...through the scan machine. You are sooo adorable, playing with your little mouth inside the womb. Indescribable feeling- that was what I felt that day. We feel blessed. 

This is already week 33++. A few weeks more to go. Inshaa Allah. Hang in there, Little One. Stay healthy and well. 

Mummy and Ayah pray that you are always healthy and happy. May everything be well.

Do know that Mummy and Ayah love you sooo much. Fi hifzillah. Amin...

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,

Permudahkanlah semuanya Ya Allah. Permudahkanlah urusan kami Ya Allah. Please guide and help us, Ya Allah. Please bless and protect us all. Amin ya rabbal alamin.